dui bu qi deardear... make u cry because of one ring...
anyway.. juz to tell u... wat i did really isn't anything great la.. its juz something i wish to do for u... Love is compromising ma...
Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, love does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, love does not take into account a wrong suffered, love does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part;
Above is a phrase from the bible... that I think is pretty romantically sweet and pretty true... I'm juz rather supportive of it la. and I shared with dear... its almost the basis of how my love is built lo... =)
Okie.. back to the main thing... Dear dint wear the ring I bought for her.. then I ask her... then she took out from wallet and put it back in again... feeling wierd.. I asked her again lo... cos Ya... I really felt quite sad.. you yi zhong rather dun buy rite like that... if you dun wanna wear... i mean.. the RS can go on without the ring if you don't want it... Its juz a symbol that Represents and reminds each other of their other half in their daily life and activities.. ain't it? Well.. Then dear gave mi the reason that its actually cos she's lazy to wear it and then take it out cos it takes a great deal of effort to do so.. and she dun wanna wear it at home... cos the time is not right.. well.. I WAS not really fine with that when I heard it.. but its okay already cos as time goes by and with my own effort of determination.. I got over the feelingz of it lo.. moreover..deardear cried cos she knew that it will make mi sad and yet keep the ring back and dun wear it. I felt bad too.. tears dripped when I parted with her at AMK to take my train home as I thought of her tearie eyes and cheeks. No one's at fault la.. I know why she do so.. but again.. Knowing and Understanding is DIFFERENT from how you FEEL abt the same matter. Just like Whether you CAN or not is different from you WANT or not... That's my ultimate understanding so far that I've derived for maturity... Often pple misunderstood.
I understand and know that dear's feeling that even tho she know her feelings are true to me.. its still a short time that we've got together.. and she wanna wait til a time whereby the "time is ripe" then she can "announce" or rather.. show it to the world.. it being our R/S. The ring is of MUCH significance to her despite her laziness that played a part in her not wearing it.. Yes.. I Knew and Understood them all... but the saddened feelingz are juz overwhelming for a while... I'm still pretty fine with the way I managed myself tho. LOL. =D
yah... and so... dear cried and cried.... sigh..wo de xin hen suan...
I really dint mean for that to happen... dou shi wo bu hao.. I'm not matured enuff ba... Or rather.. Feelings manipulation hai bu dao jia for mi lor. Politically right way of doing it should be juz leave her to keep the ring in the wallet then til she tink the time is right then she'll wear lor. then I can say I notice le (Which if I do so I surely will notice.) to show that I cherish her every single bit of details. But nah.. I'm juz not good enuff.
Dearie was very sweet... to listen to my complains abt moving stuffs here and there too... very very understanding and her listening ear and consoling lips are so soothing and comforting that kept me going back... thanks dear... I am so in love with you..........
Just feeling very bad tat I made these few days feel so bad...
Ego flared oso.. fcuk. But since last time til now I still cant take it lightly whenever someone says I'm lazy/ChowKeng or watever when I'm training and working SO HARD already and just taking a rest.
YES I NOE SHE'S KIDDING.. but still.. the above I mentioned in Italic and Bold applies.... All along.. I juz can't take it... I can't explain why.. but yes.. if there are flaws in every human.. I can say that that is ONE in me.
Sigh... dearie.. I'm awfully sorry for watever thats saddening and unhappy to you that had happened in these 2 days and nites.. Really..
*hugs tight*....
tomolo still got run.. 400m. sianz. and my nose couldn't wait and already started sprinting on the spot already... fcuk... ='(
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11:35 PM
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09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
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Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
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