My sunset romance- Blog

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Guess wat... heh.. First.. let mi paste today's frenster-diac forecast... and u see for urself how applicable or true it can be... hehee...

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When you have a strong sense of what you want, no one can push you off track.
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The cosmic flow of energy's been a wee bit off lately, which has had you feel like, while you're doing your leonine best, the universe just isn't cooperating. Well, get ready to roar, because now things begin to go much more in the direction you've been hoping for. Get ready to be proactive -- at work, in love, even with little projects -- because you can get great results. Oh, and let the good times roll!
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The Happeninz~

Slept last nite at 1.30am... couldn't sleep.. dunno for wat fuck reason... anyway.. before that i played quite shagging bball... and i was super tired from over-sleeping i think.. headache and all.. then with that 3 hours of sleep.. (yah.. i wake at 4.30... courtesy of samsam..).. i went to meet del for the 42.195km run... took at cab to find del.. no problem so far.. until we tried to look for the baggage deposit area.. walked wrong path twice.. haha... then we saw eugene tan, lil, rahman...n azhar! haha.. with some little stretching.. we braved the 42.195km OTOT race...

started together.. but del and i decided to slow down... and so we did.. haha.. then at 9th click onwards... del experienced shin-splint... all because of the new balance shoe... then we walk jog walk jog.. look for deep heat cream... haha.. promised to stick with him thru out.. and so i did.. but still.. at the 15th click or so.. del finally persuaded mi to go ahead.. i saw him like if i perservere on with my promise.. he oso feel bad.. but still.. i'm sorry dude.. dint keep to my promise... haha.. anyway..thx to del.. my race is a 43km run instead of 42.195.. haha.. sprinted some distance to get deep heat cream from the st john pple.. held the cream on my hand and sprint back to del.. haha.. really appreciate the effort that he put in to continue for another 5 km +++.. really respect for that.. cos i noe how painful the shin could be.. you did your best le!

as for mi.. i carried on running... quite difficult.. stressed mentally.. cos no more white bids (full mara runner..) beside liao.. when i chase up to the almost last person of the full mara runners.. it was at the splitting route between half mara and full mara.. quite paiseh ... haha.. cos i last person at that time.. then i catch up all the way til the middle.. lol.. super shagged out liao when i hit 21st km... then i stop n walk.. then jog walk for abt 9 km... then fast walk all the way til the last 3 click.. wah sey.. i nv experience such grueling run before.. my lungs and heart dint give way at all thru out.. but my core and thigh and hamstring.. and my knees did.. pretty early.. abt 15 click to go tat time.. so it was really mind over matter already.. ate 2 bananas.. drank LOTSA water and Hundred plus.. nv take so much water before.. usually i run.. i dun drink de... but yah.. its totally difft today... at the last 3 click.. when i hit 39km... i tot of SI Clara.. haha.. the 3 km that i took 1hr to finish.. yah.. this time.. it really happen.. but not according to another's pace.. its my own.. the pain are soooo jialat.. at the tendons and ligament.. i was limping already... then.. slowly.. i hit 40th.. 41st.. and then i jog all the way til 42.. and sprinted back.. was amazed at myself how i still can manage to sprint... saw steven on the way.. my sec sch mate.. haha.. high fived him and sprinted faster.. went thru the finishing line with lotsa cheers from everybody.. of course its for everybody too.. but tears almost shedded when i cross that line.. lol.. it was quite an achievement with no breakfast.. 3 hrs of sleep.. No training at all.. and its all by myself after the first 1/3 of the race...
i am just SO proud of myself.. seriously.. i dun tink its not being egoistic anymore.. at least not abt this..
at the last part of the race.. the last three clicks..it really took ALOT of courage and discipline to not stop.. and carry on forward.. cos every single step hurts.. like hell.. with blisters.. tiredness.. weather.. plus my injuries all probing.. all the chairs along the road side seem to be so tempting for mi to stop by and juz sit down.. but no. i pushed on.. as i scold myself for feeling so useless...
heh.. as usual.

anyway.. this is the toughest next to the 4 days 3 nites of 150km canoeing at OBS.. next yr..i'll join the 21 click one.. lol.. then i can get all the medals!! bleah...so fun... hope my knee can recover fully that is...

yah.. then.. i went home by myself.. took mrt from cityhall.. (it was damn hard to walk there oso...).. haha.. then i took mrt til outram park.. and took cab home.. haha.. my legs juz couldn't stand it anymore.. and sweet nice samsam got food for mi... then slack at home watch chicken little.. chinese version.. lol.. super funny.. super cute!! i love the little alien... hahaha.. first time hear samsam laugh til so happy oso... alot of hehehehee.. :Pp oki oki.. shan't probe further.. :Pp
was really nice la.. until that someone who caused utter unhappiness in my life called from aus. acting as frenly as tho nothing has happened before.. but no. whatever happened has happened.. and i can't forget. neither can i forgive. i noe i was in the wrong too for love/hate r/s was nv one sided.. bt u're mature enuff to noe. still.. i really hate the act frenly her.. felt really dumb.. for everything i did.. everything i sacrificed and exchanged for nothing but unhappiness i'll remember for life.
i dun really noe why i dislike her so much now.. probably she resembles her mum so much.. and i hate her mum. yes. i do. all the lies abt mi insulting her and her mum. fuck my asshole and i'll shit you in your face dude..

fuck it.
she juz isn't the type for mi. i dunno abt mi for her. but no. wats gone is gone. i shan't touch anymore. dun wanna feel like a fool.. ever again.

well.. after that.. sang abit.. looked thru past photos.. talked.. ate at yong tau hu.. sent sam to MRT station.. limped back with mac for bro. Thats all.

thx sam.. for all the gifts.. really paiseh.. but love them too.
=)

nitex all.

one word to describe the race.
Gruesome.

Checkout~
Ray.

10:45 PM

+A goodbye kiss+

Comments:

Hey dude..way to go!! 42km siah without training, but that shows that mind over body, your mental strength is what sustained you. Put the same effort as you did in whatever you set your mind to and you'll always emerge a winner. =)

~Jer

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Anonymous : December 06, 2005