Before getting self-centered and bombard this entry with lotsa I, Me, Myself and I... I will like to say something...
NOTTI DEARIE.. FORGOT GOT CLASS~~~ *ABISH!!!* *Spanks Dearie's Notti BUM BUM!!!*... HENGZ I call you rite.. wah raoz~...
But still.. you sound damn sweet when you're sleepy (i.e, when you about to sleep and when you just woke up.).. makes me wanna.... just... *muacks* you. hee...
Love you dear.
Okie... The primary purpose of this entry is not to announce the above but more like to write down my new yr resolution and how I hope to improve myself as a person and basically it is just what I hope to Do and Get and Be in this yr 2006.
Yr 2005 has really been a grueling year for me.. All the pain and hurt.. caused by living and non living objects in this world... However.. it brings to my attention that some living object can be more heartbreaking and takes things for granted more than those not living. For once again I gave my everything.. even my life in exchange for her love but still she did not even wanna see me and just merely insisted on her not-suitable-to-see each other kinda scenario.. it was heart breaking but I learnt a lesson too.. and that is no R.S is certain.. it takes two hands to clap... no matter how much you give.. if its not wat the other party wants.. its of no use at all. Also.. even if two pple can be SUPERBLY compatible.. flawless attributes... No R.S will work out if one party lacks initiative. But of course.. Ultimately.. the excellence factor lies on one question that I have been trying to answer in my whole life.. "How much is Enough?".. All along in my life.. I've been trying "Too Hard" for those who saw the real me and commented on me. Its easy to see the real me if you get along with me quite just well and long enough.. but not many can see the problems and questions that I see just by living as an organism in this ugly-beautiful world.
Anyway.. the only console I am giving myself is that at least I have the initiative and I dare to try. I ain't no mama's boy and I live MY LIFE (with considerations to others.. sometimes/most of the times depending on situation).
Yes.. I believe the above had somehow summarised my thoughts for wat I learnt from my previous R.S. One important principle of living for me will be no making of mistakes once I know them. for Mistakes repeated will be a Wrong and Wrongs are not supposed to be done. I'm not a politically right person but I insist strongly on my way of doing things just to make sure I have no regrets when I leave this ugly-beautiful world. Once again I strongly emphasize. Ugly-Beautiful World.
I woke up with a hit on my head reminding me of myself in the army days. It was a short 3 months but none can realise how much it changed me. I remembered how efficient I was.. to be able to get ready in 5 mins (Shower, Brush teeth and Changed). I tried to do that again as I woke at 7.25.. even tho I need to go out only at 7.40, I decided to give dearie a morning call at 7.30 since i'm still early for her morning call. Glad that I was still able to do it but then another fact hit me again. And it hit me hard.. that is for the past few months.. I ain't living with much.. no.. not any urgencies at all compared to my army days... thx to police force i should say but I ain't gonna blame it on anyone for its myself who chose to take away the urgency factor just because there isn't any enforcement or much need of it. I've somehow decided to bring back those urgencies. starting from today.
Next.. I hope to be a good brother to my younger bro... Hope to be a good example.. Hope to be someone he can learn from... I heard lotsa pple saying its okay that he bu hui xiang cos he's onli 14.. but to me.. there's no such thing as too young to be mature.. even tho onli 14.. I don't want him to be the same as the other 14 yr old kids. Basically cos he has a bro and that bro is me. I hope for him to excel without any pressure too hard to handle.
I also hope to be a good eldest child in the fam. I dunno how yet.. probably to save some money and appreciate more of the things done by my mum and dad for me and my bro. Let them noe I am there for them. Lets just say be a Guai Kia for them can le la.
Hmm.. Hopefully I can also get back my fitness.. The me who can run 10 click and rest for 5 mins then play ball for whole nite. Actually.. it's gonan be quite hard.. but I've made a promise to myself to come back stronger on the court anyway. So I'll be good. =)
I need my abs. I need a stronger back. So I'll work on that.
I need stronger hamstring to accomodate my strong thighs.
I need bigger chest and biceps and triceps to look good.
Above all those.. I wanna be flexible.. so I gotta do some painful stretching...=)
I've learnt to love pain.. cos pain is my friend... Thx 2nd Lieut Lim. hee..
Materialistic items will be about...
I need a new bag and I need a new fone...
I hope to get my driving license.. so FU~~~ ni zai na li? Lets go take together~~
I hope to get my lifeguard cert too.
Steps towards that that ~ Learn my free style..
~ Be more comfortable in water..
~ Swim as and when I can.
~ Ask dear teach. In exchange for muacks~ hehehe....
Last but not least.. I wanna be a good bf... Not to repeat whatever mistakes I made last time. Be more mature and handle things with appropriate measures.. Be more vocal and not keep everything to myself. Give what dearie needs.
Love my family, love my dearie.. be understanding and sensitive to them.
I pray for better health for everyone around me, esp. my dad and mum and dearie and bro.. and myself. Amen.
Checkout~
Ray.
9:04 AM
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Day of Generation:
09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
Desire~List
- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
Sports, swimming esp!, life-saving, shopping, taking pictures
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