biker-look dearie.. looks abit lyk his colleague, chusna too.. ha~
he who always concentrates really hard while studying..
us taking a break!! ha.. spent whole afternoon @ westmall coffeebean.. study for NCAP exam which took place yesterday night! was only an hr's paper.. was alright i guess.. dear's handwriting super small&cursive
.. couldnt even peek @ wad he was writing =p ha.. anw, he still pin-pointed at our text to guide me in answering my qns.. hope we score well..i gotta go off for now.. study study study for thursday's paper.. so can enjoy tml's chalet!! hee..
1:30 PM
My bro.. onli can pass POA, Math and Chinese... I noe he had improved.. but at the same time.. its really saddening to noe too.. i dunno wat else i can say to him.. i've went thru that phase.. telling him to stop playing games ain't gonna work.. stopping him forcefully ain't gonna reflect anything good either.. I've grown thru that phase and turned out fine.. but can he?
I used to have confidence in him.. but after getting along with dearie.. i had kinda lost contact with him again.. until juz now when we went for a li'l jog together.. taught him some running techniques.. then he told me abt his study stuffs...
sigh...
Di ar Di.. Will you please make it to the O level yr? Pls... I really want you to do mum proud.. but at the same time.. I respect you as an individual and a growing adult.. Whatever I can tell you.. I already told you.. For 3 to 4 times I've talked to you until you cry.. and thats why I nv listen to pple to juz go and forcefully stop you from gaming.. I believe watever I can do and say.. I already done so in the Reasonable way..and I believe strongly in you that you felt wat i was trying to convey and wat i was telling you.
Please.. prove me right.. won't you?
Seriously.. my last advice if i were to talk to bro.. would be Knowing that you can't pass or do well for a subject and dun do anything abt it.. but play and play and play game.. and go out with them despite studying that amount of wat you are currently doing.. ain't enuff.. ain't gonna do you any improvement enough for you to get to where you want..
You used to tell me you wanna get to poly! then you have to work harder than this...
wat teacher said is wat teacher said... prove to him you can do it! just like how you proved that you can get 80 for chinese test easily!
Jiayou ba.. you told me just now that you aren't gonna give up.. I have trust in that in you.
Do me proud k.
Dearie... jiayou for your exam.... I love you... You're equally impt to me despite I din't mention anything here.. you're my first priority in life.. you always will be.. oki?
Huggiex..
Checkout~
Ray.
12:28 AM
-=SUN KISSED=-
....BOIBOI & GERGER....
tts me working at HTA (Hometeam Academy) swimming pool.. taking a dip from the sorching sun in e midst of my work =p.. tts e flexibility i like about working as a lifeguard here.. ha~ anyway, i had such great company w dear.. i bought us kfc for lunch, then i started work while dear soaked in e cool waters.. hee.. as usual there wasn't anyone so i joined dear too.. *wee.........!!
dear came down afer work again and we left for NCAP lesson together..what fun..
what company..
every moment with you is fufilling!
*kisses left by -samsam-*
6:06 PM
It ain't anything expensive..
Almost dint cost a thing.. except a li'l more strain on my tired brainie! hee..
Before that.. let me blog a li'l...
Had our last NCAP lesson today... will kinda miss it.. esp. when lesson with dearie is SO fun! haa.. i'm gonna suggest going to level 2 with her.. =p then ar.. this last lecturer has SO much passion in sports.. i really find a portion of myself inside him.. ha.. really inspired by him.. =)
anyway.. he is one of the factor i'm gonna miss the lessons... probably cos even tho within a short period of three days.. his passion for sports.. patience and techniques he exercise in teaching is really making mi admire him SO much! haaa... i aint gay.. its just pure respectful admiring..
Well.. too bad.. haa.. if you yuan.. maybe i can even work under him in few years time! haha.. will go find out then where is he when i grad from NIE if i got in and if i still remember him! =p
keke.. dearie notti ar.. always rub rub rub.... :P * rubs face on dearie's jacket... like baby!! :Pp*
just wanna tell u.. having lesson with u.. is more than fun oki.. how i wish i am in poly with u now.. haa.. =)
oki la.. here's the prezzie.. i.e the poem =)
Sleepy Notti Dearie..
Grumpy yet So attractive..
Almost getting angry..
Controlling too, can be tiring..
But I always tell myself this..
Tat only thru these shit..
Then I can c your true beauty..
I'd rather u complain unreasonably at reasonable times..
Than compromising my need using uncompromisable tries..
Thankful is what I am..
For the effort of you trying..
Appreciative is understatement for what i hab for you, my true feelings..
With you, I feel bliss..
Yet I feel fear in me..
Fear of losing..
Losing you, not the quarrellings..
So Please..
Raise the unlikings..
Don't think suffering for another is loving..
If you're unhappy..
I'd always wish tat's when you're Not with me..
Help me to make yourself happy!
Now, _Thats ~Loving~ =)
Hee.. once again.. happy 2nd monthlyversary Sex-Kittie...
-Horny Bunny.
Checkout.
Ray.
11:49 PM
been a pretty bad day for me.. had business law paper today.. dunno whether can score anot.. so many ting 2 write!! not sure if my ans r accurate.. received my blaw proj marks oso.. 72 only.. big disappointment considering e amt of tym n effort put into it and there r other grps tt put in less effort n score higher marks den us!! haiz.. -sadded-
aft paper realised couldnt haf dinner w dear cos he meeting yikang for dinner.. quite sian diao oso.. cos not very gd mood le..
but anw when i saw dear on escalator, he was holding a stalk of flower on his hands! i was extremely delighted! i noe he bought it for me to cheer me up.. soooooooo sweet of him..
end up i din come any clothes @ westmall so went to lot1 for dinner @ long john's silver.. which is where we took these pics! hee..
me with dearie's pink rose..
dear looking bigger in size with dis brown t-shirt.. oso reporting bigger chest due to apparent stretch marks discovered near his armpits.. lol~ congrats! yr nearing yr target!! btw, dear's holding a disposable white fork in his hand if u cant c it.. ha...
its 24 february 2006 now..
Happy 2nd MonthSary dear!!
*-samsam- leaves kiss marks on dearir's cheeks!*
12:17 AM
Hee... today is the memorial of my first...
hehehe...
it was pretty good..
pretty blissful..
pretty nice..
pretty smooth..
pretty sensational..
pretty sensual...
pretty lovable..
pretty addictive..
and.....
pretty pretty orgasmic.. =p
I'm talking abt my first time drinking red wine la...
hahahahaa... what are you tinking abt.. =D=D=D
dearie... nice rite? *wink.. hee..*
*grinx..*
Checkout~
Ray.
2:34 PM
~=Dedication=~
I hope the man upstairs isn't mad at me
Because I have one of his angels and she's here with me
Each time I see her precious smile and she spreads her wings
She takes me to a place where love meets eternity
Oh no, I'm not letting go
I don't want to be alone in this crazy world
Oh, Lord, how I love her so
And I'll sacrifice it all to have her in my life
I found my girl
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for you
He blessed me with my angel though I don't deserve you
Before I met you, girl, lonely was my best friend
Now that you are in my life, I am stronger within
I can't wait to kiss my angel late at night
And watch her go to sleep until I see her rise
I found my girl
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
All that I do is for you
Me without you, girl, just won't do
Your love's all I want to know
Angel, don't you ever go
Life won't be the same without you
I found my girl
I'll tell the world
That heaven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes, heaven is missing an angel
Song: 98 Degrees - Heaven's Missing an Angel.
Dedicated to: Sam
Fro: Qing
Date: 20/02/06
Time: 0917hrs
Message:
You're my one and only true love. For now, later, in the future.. you will always be... Believe God set us up by letting us be SO deeply in love previously with such pple who seems unappreciative, before matching us up to make things more beautiful than it could be. Don't you agree, my lovely Angel?
Checkout.
Ray.
9:11 AM
Heh.. what a Vday for mi... It was the SWEETEST.. Most "Present-full".. Thrilling.. Loving.. Sensual(I'll elaborate on this! :P read on! :P).. Happy.. Perfect Vday for mi.. hehe...
Sweetest~
I nv tot I'd fall SO deeply in love with dearie within such a short period of time.. 1 and a Half month ago.. I like her very much... then.. subsequently I fell for her.. Everything seems right.. and normal.. and more importantly.. REAL.. ups and down surfaces even in the first month.. Nothing too sweet.. Nothing too easy and wrong... =).. then.. suddenly.. I found myself in a well of love.. drowning.. in the juices of love *kinky?:Pp.. its not wat u think, pple..*.. I died in the drowning case.. and now Evolved into a whole new person... Thanks to her love.. in Just 1 month.. you changed me like no one else did.. How I wish to see more in the future.. and I mean.. FAR future... with you, my deardear always.
Most "Present-full"~
Bought her the most exp. present I ever gotten for a girl. ha... it ain't exp.. but still.. its the most exp. for a poor guy like mi.. sorry dearie abt that.. i will work harder.. thats wat i feel for myself.. not for u. hee.. dun mistaken please, all readers.. :) she ain't like that. =p Well.. wrote her a letter.. with all my heart.. *wow. thats expensive.. invaluable.*=p..gave her a "RESCUE" tag that is bright orange in color too.. hee.. nice.. I got one for myself also.. lol.. hmm..for myself.. i received a NIKE Bag from her that I WANTED TO GET!!! goodness gracious.... haa.. that time she told mi she won't get it cos i guessed it le.. then i tot of buying a bag at thailand.. luckily i nv get cos i nv get a good bargain.. lol.. but yah.. she also bought a really kinky card for mi.. a wheel of sensuality! hahaha... got sound somemore.. lol.. the things she wrote inside was really sweet but its onli for mi to noe and for you all to envy. haa... wat else.. oh.. the sweetest present she did.. was to wake mi up in the morning.. and then jump to the doorstep joyfully and show mi a BIG BOX (bought from PRECIOUS MOMENTs. batteries sold separately.. haha.. kidding..).. where my presents are contained... HOW SWEET a way to present the presents.. haha.. oh yes.. it was followed by many kisses.. which i will mention later.. lol...
Thrilling~
Well... we were queueing up outside Fish and Co...The queue was until Park Mall already! goodness gracious.. it'll probably take abt an hr for us to reach the inside.. then.. we noticed empty seats outside but there is NO INITIATIVE from customers (abt a HUNDRED OF THEM queueing..) to ask if they can take those seats.. and the waiters and waitresses are either too busy or taking their own sweet time. Thus I went ahead and walked forward to ask the waitress that happened to be by the door side.. if dearie and I can take the seat outside cos it seems like no one cares.. I did mentioned that I was at the rear side of the queue too.. and she said "yah! sure!!.. pls go ahead!" then I confirmed again.. mentioning that fact that if she allows, I'll be cutting queue!.. and she affirmed with mi. hee... then I brought dearie in.. but then a waiter saw mi coming in and smiled and me.. thus I asked him if we can sit outside since no one seems to be taking the seats even tho they've been empty for the 20 mins we've been waiting! and he said i must queue up first! then i said one of his waitress fren said okaY!.. then he turned and ard and asked which one? then i said i dunno.. and he went away talking to his another lady fren asking who.. haha.. then NOTTI DEARIE pulled my hand and said "we're going upstairs!".. then up we went! hahaha... hand froze for a moment cos nv do such things before.. lol... but still.. our date carried on and we had a great dinner.. oh btw.. it was supposed to be like this: Soup named "Foreplay" ---> main course ---> ice cream... but then they forgot our soup.. and gave us the main course first! ha.. and i was telling dearie.. for the first time.. i had foreplay only AFTER the main "Course".. hehe... despite things going in an almost bizarre and abnormal way.. its thrilling and cool! hahaha...
Loving~
Went to take neoprints oh.. haha... if you see the pics.. which we will upload soon.. you'll noe how it feel to be loved and loving! hehehe.. i can't explain this.. because love ain't explainable by words anyway... and to forcefully do it.. will only result in devaluing the golden moments and invaluable love.
Sensual~
Hee... after dearie came to mimi home....
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wOO! that was SO hot and sweaty and... Lovely. hehee... quite shaGening oso.. :Pp OKIE.. moving on...
Happy~~
Okie.. on a serious note now.. If all the above happened to a simple and ugly guy like me.. To describe the cause of it as me having done a lot of good deeds in my previous life would be an understatement!
In fact.. To be in love with her.. is really really a dream come true.. She is ALL the attributes that I wanted plus together with the great b*****s that I always ONLY dreamt of.. not to say dearie has a pretty face that is like strawberry too. LOL... and I am Orange :Pp hahaha.. well.. an almost perfect combi of Inner Beauty plus Outter Beauty and Inner Notti plus Outer Notti! hahaa... oki la.. she's an affectionate beast.. oops.. i mean animal.. err.. queen of my life! hehehee... =p I love the beasty nature of dearie with sensibility... Guainess and Filial dearie towards her parents.. and sweetness and loving towards me... her attitude and confidence of herself is something that makes me melt... and her ability to understand and feel for life is what I admire. hehehe... there's more! but i dunno how to say le... and I'm doing this during work! lol.. oki..
back to work...
c ya~
*Sam: did u say.. beast? animal?.... *ROARS*..* *Sam starts chasing me ard~~~ * *NOOOOOO... Don't bite mi.. Don't whip mi anymore~~~ sobx....* I'm sorry~~~ =P =P =P =P =P =P =p =p =p =p =p =p =p
Checkout~
Ray. *Acts cool for awhile.. then.. RUNS AWAY HORRIFIC-LY!!!* :pP
*OH NO~~ She got m and tied me onto the.. MMM..b..E....*MMMMMmmmMMmMM... He~~Mm~LP..MMMmmmm .... ~~~~ MmmmmmE~...
Sam : "oops~"... *pulls curtain and covers window.. *... hee...
1:21 PM
went to work 7am to 7pm @ HTA yesterday.. wasn't so bad afterall cos i could meet my hunny for breakfast, lunch & dinner.. haha.. so nice of him to come accompany me.. be it via sms, swimming or having meals together..
lunch@ sunshine place wasn't too gd.. kopitiam close 4 renovations.. ate some very oily n expensive fd bought frm e few pathetic stalls there.. but dearie bought me mon cherry chocolates to spice up my day!! hee.. such a sweety.. he den came to e pool after wrk to swim with me.. din swim much.. more lyk soak water n haf fun.. haha~ dear learnt how to tread water le!! hee.. dear so happy lo.. after we bathed, it rained super heavily.. n guess wad we resorted to do.. we had no umbrellas to shelter ourselves so we decided to both wear my spare clothes! haha.. we looked super identical.. LOL..
we den ran under to the bus stop sheltering ourselves w my IVP windbreaker only! haha.. hao tian o.. only our legs were wet n cold.. den we took several pics t e bus stop despite stares frm some aunty.. haha~ heck right! aft arriving at lot1 shopping mall, we went to take neoprint cos of our special dressing.. e neoprint turned out well! had many special effects n no time limit! lol.. we had so much fun taking it..
as usual aft dinner @ long john's, dear sent mi home.. *sweet-sweet*
*-samsam- loves GQ lots lots..*
1:12 PM
dardar look soooooooooooooooooooo cute in this picture cos i secretly caught him by surprise!! haha...
finally we got into Fish&Co.. luckily we were clever in some ways i shan't elaborate.. *roars..
me
me..happily waiting with dearie..
happily gazing into dearie's eyes..
happily mesmerizing with him..
happily indulging in this happiness..
wad heaven..........
duo mei...!! lol~
on our way to heeren's to have our V'Day neoprint taken!
super shagged out that we both looked alike when we're tired.. lols~ nevertheless, we had so much fun taking our neoprint n enjoyed our day SO MUCH!! even though i later realised my shoe almost fell apart n bird shit landed on my head.. ha...
LOVE you LOTS dear!!
10:25 AM
our presents for each other!!
Samsam's presents for Deardear..
HoneyBee's prezzies for Samsam..so sweet of dear to buy me the Valentine's Day edition Swatch watch.. SO NICE! i love you so much.. its packaged in a very nice red box and it contains a silver heart inside which produces e sounds of bells clanging against each other softly..
such a long queue outside fish&co glasshouse.. yet we were indulging in each other's company..
10:13 AM
Btw.. i muz clarify.. its difficult for most pple to separate love and lust..
but i'm sure dearie and i noe it very well.. in fact.. i tink its due to the fact that we're so Ho.. Notti.. and thus we developed the natural instinct to distinguish between that clearly and more easily.. esp. when its between the one we love.
I meant to say.. Us.
=)
I noe very clearly in my heart and soul and brain and my li'l brother too.. that its love I have for u.
For its the affections that i enjoy tgt with u.. NOT the physical satisfaction i get for myself or emotional satisfaction that i get by satisfying you...
In God's name I can swear that that is true.
Wrote this out because I don't wan any misunderstanding.. =)
Checkout~
Ray.
12:11 AM
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samsam says:
yups
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darling
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i dunno how to describe my love for u man
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i feel SO obsessed withu
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like u're my driving force for everything now..
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can't believe i fell so deeply in such a short time
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i dun onli love the physical contact with u as they are SO passionate and so romantic..
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i love the affections we show for each other too
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and the maturity.. the ability to be behind each other when either one needs support
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i love the chemistry between us.. and i love ..
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u
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so blessed.. to have this rs..
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its really really an undescribable blessings..
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cant believe the fact that i can find my dream girl
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ha..
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believe it or not
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u're 95 percent perfect on my requirement list...
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so much so tat i am afraid i will lose u in ANY way
samsam says:
wheres e 5% ?
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hee.. 3 Ts...
samsam says:
=(
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=p
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haa..
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dearie
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dun be sad..
samsam says:
=(=(=(=(=(=(=(
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those are already covered by that 95%of urs le la
samsam says:
ok im affected by TT 5%
samsam says:
so
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ha..
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dearie..
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perfection is not possible..
samsam says:
haiz
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pls dun be silly and contradict my saying that we're mature
samsam says:
no ur saying im ***..
samsam says:
which i noe i aM
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but u asked wat
samsam says:
those r my problem areas
samsam says:
haiz
samsam says:
ya i noe
samsam says:
=(
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i was juz being frank dearie..
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dui bu qi la.
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if u dun like to hear
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i won't say it next time ..
samsam says:
i noe
samsam says:
dun wan u2bluff me oso
samsam says:
quite contradicting i mus say
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y..
samsam says:
i requested u 2 tell me e 5%
samsam says:
but i dun feel gd abt hearin it
samsam says:
ha..
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hmmiez.
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.dearie muz try to accept facts .
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
thats part of growing up too..
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u can try to improve it..
samsam says:
yes i noe these facts
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but dun feel bad abt it
samsam says:
but jus mayb dun like2admit
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noeing them and accepting them are two difft things.. when u accept it.. u admit it and dun feel bad abt it ma..
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jiayou
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it'll take time
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jus like i noe my chest got no definition
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and i hate it when u say my chest aint nice
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but i kept forcing myself to hear you say so
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i even force myself to prompt u to say so..
samsam says:
haiz same lo..
samsam says:
*hug hug
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by doing that.. i can overcome ma
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ha.
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hugg..
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i noe wat i'm doing dearie
samsam says:
ok..
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i noe i muz force myself to face wats my problem
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onli then i can overcome them
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applies to all ma
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haa..
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hope i can set a gd example for dearie in the aspects tat i can.. and i noe dearie got alot for mi to learn from too..
samsam says:
ok..
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i noe dearie's trying very hard in many things le.. as long as u noe u're putting in ur best.. thats enuff.. because i can see.. and i don't expect them to be much better at all..
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all the things that u've changed for the better.. i am happy for u.. those things that u nv change yet.. i'll pray abt them.. and stand by ur side.. and encourage u if they are really wrong and have to be changed..
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i'm always here by ur side.. dearie
samsam says:
thks dearie
samsam says:
u made me feel betta
samsam says:
alr
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i ain't a saint.. and i ain't treating myself as one
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i just feel that as a bf..
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anyone
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as a bf
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those are the fundamentals to do
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for the one he loves..
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else.
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it won't be a love great enuff .
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no
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i tink if the bf nv do so
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he's not worthy to be loved at al
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because love is like respect
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u dun take it.. u dun get it because pple give u
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u earn them..
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say if i ain't doing those things for u.. and dearie still shower mi with ur endless love like now
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i won't be happy being loved by u
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i really won't
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because i wouldn't be worthy then..
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=)
samsam says:
hee..im glad u can sense my love4u
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
thats just part of my heart for u..
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
of course dearie..
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i ain't blind..
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maybe my eyes are like normal human that can onli take in 4 hertz of info per sec.
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
but my heart is connected to urs.
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
how to be blind hheee
samsam says:
my heart's connected2u too
Anger strong enuff to kill. Shutting out NS. Living My Life. says:
dearie understand my heart and principles of my love le ma
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Hope that the above will serve as a reminder for us.. so we can always cherish each other's love more when we come back and read abt it again.. =)
I love you dearie... huggiex...
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Ray.
11:53 PM
Thankx dearie.. for everything you did...
no one had ever been soooooo sweet to me before oh....
seriously... you are like fulfilling every single thing i've wished for in a rs..... its more than amazing you noe... ha... like for the proposal.. you gave me a big heartie lollipop... and for this vday... when i came back from thai last nite.. you gave me a BIG CRIMsON RED HEART!!!!! god... itz juz so so so sweet.. even tho i may not exclaim it... my heart had melted so many times because of wat you did... i dun tear easily.. but dearie.. you really had been really dear to me!
thanks dearie.. for the card you made.. folder sides of three.. with letters and picturez of us so blissfully together.. so beautifully carved and cut out and pasted... it muz have been very very tiring for my usually not so patient dearie! haha... one thing good abt impatient dearie is that even tho she's impatient.. she'll put her heart into anything that she commits to do.. and she'll complete it with her best effort no matter how impatient she is or she can be!... that applies to our rs too.. thats why i put my heart with her so readily too! =)
haa.. oki la.. juz finish run... gotta go get rdy to call ya le..
hugx dearie.. hope you like the baggie.. and the frenship band.. and the special something u'll receive tomolo! =p ... sorry for getting the wrong size for ur pants! haha.. i underestimated your butt size! =p
haha..
tata...
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Raygazm.
11:50 PM
dearie dream of me almost every night.. pretty weird.. but it shows how much he misses me!! ha.. feel so sweet at the thought of it.. *sniggers*
hmm.. how come dear dreamt of having dinner with me? hungry for me? LOL.. i getting so silly from missing u..
wad a weird saturday tt i haf to myself.. bro n sis at taekwondo.. dad at swimming.. mum is marketing.. maid is doing housechores.. wad abt me? slacking on my bed singing karaoke and using lappy.. i shouldnt b doin dis man.. i SHOULD START STUDYING..
*dread it..*
cant wait for exams 2b over.. go for attachment even though we haf no holiday.. i'm quite happy with my posting.. so far i'm the only 1 in my clz posted to a stockbroking firm which is related2my course of studies.. others are posted to mainly ntuc income insurance, dbs and a debt collector company@ henderson industrial park! despite e low pay of $440 and possibility of doin admin work only, i hope i can understand better of how a stockbroking firm works and get a better insight of the mechanisms inside.. but so far i can't find anyone posted to the same place as me leh.. sian.. i wished for some company.. den i wun get so bored shopping at suntec every single day..ha~
anyway, irin was posted to Citibank group at Millenia Towers.. quite near suntec eh? HEH.. we can meet up man.. yay..
dear, in 36 hrs more, u wld arrive back in Singapore.. hee.. can't wait!! heard u bought several things for each of us yeaterday.. happy shopping at Thailand ah.. me oso wan!* jealous..* haha~ but i want you more.......... =p
*flying kisses left by -samsam-*
11:22 AM
today last day of school, finally completed all my projects..! yay.. so happy.. just returned from school.. wad a relieve.. =)
yesterday before send you off to thailand dear haohao bao o.. yr long sleeve shirt so soft and comfortable..! hee.. such a coincidence tt we both wrote letters for each.. deardear is so good at expressing your thoughts in writing.. keep thanking me in the letter oso.. dunnid mention it la dear.. whatever i have done for you is all that i'm willing to do you because of how much i love you dear.. i'm so glad you like my gift for you too! hee..
hope dearie is enjoying his holiday at thailand now.. i miss you alot dear.. life seems a little empty without you.. cant wait for you to return..!!
looking forward for a wonderful valentines' day with you on tuesday dear..
*-samsam- can't wait to hug my honeybee!* =p
6:00 PM
I'm too hardworking in a rs...
I see things too far away.. which normal pple can't and don't even bother to..
I love improvements too much.. I'm too much of a person with shan jin xin..
I hate laziness too much.. esp. in other pple.. I hate pple with no sense of urgency.. which my previous girls are kinda like that.
I expect pple to perform analysis like myself. Which is not very possible.. I have too high an IQ OR Logic OR i'm WAY TOO HARDWORKING compared to all my previous girls.. I dunno abt this one yet =p
I ain't being EGOISTIC. Its just certain truth I have to lay down here.
I believe whether or not I can be a better lover and advance.. and make this rs a lasting one with everlasting happiness.. aiya.. i mean make this rs one that is in a higher level than the previous ones.. will depend mostly on improving all those factor le...
heee...
I'll jiayou de!
huggiex deariedearie... so silly and blurrie..
Muackx deariedearie.. so funny and lazie...
Lickx deariedearie.. such a hottie.. sexy bunny~!
haa...
An an...
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Ray.
12:49 AM
was very shock to have heard tt daddy had a 2-inch wide cut on his left eyebrow&i didn't even know about it!! it happened ard 2+am aft he returned frm jimmy's hs after playing mahjong.. for i dunno wad reasons, e store room door actually slammed unto his upper eyelid & cut it.. pretty scary! had 4 stitches&may leave a scar.. but glad hes alright la.
went2c doc w dear aft sch2dae..super alot of ppl la~ had lunch&waited4quite some time oso..had quite a trueful talk w dear..told him hw i felt abt certain things..it wasnt happy & neither was it extremely unnhappy..i guess ren de stubborness & sum tings nid time2change lo.. afterall we grew up w wad we thought was right but seem wrong to others.
this dear of mine is really a sweetie-pie lo.. dun understand y he dui wo na me hao.. he can do anyting jus to make me happy&c me smile.. cos he say wo kai xing jui zhong yao.. ytd aft i sent him home on a cab at 11 plus, he actually pao le up to eight 7-11 convenience store to get me something to cheer me up.. btw ytd dear acc me till so late & was feeling pretty uncomfortable & a lil unhappy lo.. still go buy a 'i love you' bookmark w a cute lil boy kissing a cute lil girl.. sometimes i feel that i'm not tt worthy to be teng lo.. but dear insist its jus a small thought..
anyway, things got better.. dear's condition wasnt as worrying anymore.. had piles & fever(although i only found out@e end of e day cos dear din tell me he recovered frm e overnight fever le..). had dinner@ his place den went 2 walk walk a little.. dear den accompanied me to hougang mrt n shun bian get his stuffs.. had sum supper b4 goin home happily.. hee~
*-samsam- muackssss on dearie's ears*
10:30 PM
Happy Chinese New Year to ALL who are reading my bloggie~~~ =D
Went to Yi Po's hm to bai nian... then Kim Po's hm... standard la.. but then.. it was a li'l difft this time as Yi Po told me alot and then my curiousity that doesn't kill me(cos i'm not a cat.).. discovered that my mum's the onli daughter of my grandma. and that I don't have any Biao something at all! =D
I oso found out that my dad's got 1 elder sister and 1 elder brother.. he's third.. and he got total of 4 more brothers and 3 more sisters..
I got 3 jiejie one dead and 2 KHORS..
good god. hahah... he's POWER~ =D
haha..
guess wat.. I gotta announce some wierd stuff here..
My Dua Gu who's a PROFESSOR.. gives FOUR dollars Ang Bao.. and an auntie who sweeps at the coffeeshop my mum works at gives TEN FREAKING DOLLARS...
Professor = Stingy person? All professors in this world.. please.. blame that stingy li'l person. LOL..=p
Yeah... went to dearie's home to bai nian... thensaw ALOT of pple.. but i went at a very bad state.. I got diarhhea and that bloody stool problem. f. it came back.. and my head's hurting.. from the minute and worrying abt work. this is my first time learning to F care.. so give mi some time. well.. got a shock when I saw ALL of her neighbours at her home... and the Jimmy said Happy Chinese New Year to me.. and I just smiled back cos I was so tired I don't noe wat to say! it applied to everyone that I met that nite.. freak! God Darn. looking at Jimmy and the bunch of homo-homosepians.. makes me feel like I should belong to that group... LOL... all so boyish look with some muscles here and there. Now I know why so many gays approached me.
Went to ADam's place.. and dearie dint even bother to intro mi to adam's family.. then I took her ang bao.. it was REALLY embarassing... not courteous at all... but no matter how i insist.. dearie won't do it. dint wan the situation to turn bad.. thus just let it go.
then saw Victoria... something she said kinda hurts.. but its silly to even think abt it.. she says she wants edmund.
AM I THAT BAD? well.. I know its a No for sure.. but why?
oh well.. its juz a kid's comment.. even tho a kid's comment is usually the most purely true ones.
wadeva.. the one i love is samsam.. not vic...
on the other hand.. Trinity's cute.. more than cute! heh. At least she don't dislike me.. haha... but seriously.. I just wasn't in the right state to talk or entertain or even do anything... usually I can play ard with kids quite well.. but I dunno how tonite..
Went to Jimmy's place later... the house was just too cozy to be true.. even tho I'd prefer a more spacious place.. but I like the bedroom in particular. Kinda kinky and exotic.. no.. i'm not tinking with my perverted mind.. but romance is wat's inside when I saw the room.
Spent some time at his home as dearie played cards.. she said watch her play awhile.. and her a li'l while turns out to be an hour plus...
It was fine at the beginning.. but then slowly I found out I really hve this hatred towards gambling. I noe.. its for entertaining purpose.. I noe.. its cos its new yr.. and I noe.. its her close neighbours.. and thus it'll be bad to leave in a true li'l while's time.. I have ALL THAT in mind... but when I think abt it again.. dearie got tipsy in front of them the nite before.. and dearie gambles. Isn't it a li'l overboard? I don't noe man... suddenly my protective nature overwhelmed me.. I noe dear's outgoing and loves fun.. that became more of a threat or danger sign to me when I thought of that..
I don't mind dearie' being outgoing and fun loving.. but WHAT IF all those(getting tipsy and gambling) happens outside?
Yes.. I noe dearie's a sensible gal.. I noe dearie can take care of herself..
but let me tell any and every reader one thing.
IF there is NO such thing as ACCIDENTS or POSSIBILITY... and dearie's shu bu qi de nature..
perhaps I won't even get worried at all.. Who noes wat will happen in the world outside? dearie
herself noe her si yao mian zi de ego oso. I shan't continue here.
I noe dearie dun like to be "guaned" but if I onli want you for physical pleasure or toy for some aspect.. and I don't treat you as my love at all.. I WOULDN'T tell you abt it at all.. or even get worked up! I'd be hoping you get tipsy one day outside and so I can dump you when I get bored of you.
I know its onli one month +.. but this kinda thing if I don't put it into words.. It may lead to more sad things next time.. more over.. I believe its nothing bad to learn from.
and please note. I noe clearly that dearie's onli entertaining.. and its onli for a special occasion.. and its onli a once a year thing (perhaps) onli. but can u count for mi how many SPECIAL OCCASIONS can there be?
My ultimate point is that I hope dearie will bear wat I said in mind.. getting tipsy at home is fine.. but please.. self control is more than anything else.. ESPECIALLY YOUR EGO and MIAN ZI.. when you're outside and I'm not with you. Gambling is fine.. (I won't touch it.. I hope you really understand it fully in terms of why and I don't wish anyone else to noe...).. as long as you noe when to stop. for you have live examples in front of u beside your dearest to see how badly it can damage one's personality. You ahve your freedom to exercise anything you want.. and I have mine.. but please.. bear this in mind.
Anything done by our ownself.. we HAVE to bear the consequences. and we SHOULD NOT put hopes on asking the other party to compromise or forgive. for its onli fair and RIGHT for the other party to do so willingly without being asked. this is basic courtesy and way of living. I dunno if dearie understand.
I meant to sound serious and not harsh in this entry.. for I'M DEAD SERIOUS abt this.
Just like that time when I told you that if dear can't chi ku with me.. then don't bother to even put hopes on me.. for I'm prepared for the future.. I need onli someone who can be as prepared as I do. I may get rich as hell or I may be as poor as the beggar.. but no matter wat I will live strong for I've been there and done that.. Nothing's not possible. I've lived on porridge and soy sauce for three meals aday.. two pieces of bread a meal makes no difference.
I already promised you I will work hard.. but still if fate and destiny book writes so that I will turn poor no matter how hard I work.. then I will still face hardship..
it's onli good to be prepared no matter wat.
Dearie told mi that you understand fully.. and you really noe that I meant good for you..
I put my trust in you.. please don't.. play with it.. okay?
for I gave my all previously.. and my trust was taken for granted.. I still am giving my all in all for you.. in fact.. more than I can handle.. I onli hope it is good enuff for you already.
well.. dearie.. I really love you... and it can't be described with words.. I don't noe how to write that down...
but I hope thru my actions and words you can see.. that all of the above ain't from the controlling and power-sucker me... its purely base on love.. concern and cares that arises worries from the wild thoughts of you getting tipsy and how gambling can destroy someone with great characteristics like my.. nvmz..
rmbr u msg mi wat when u were tipsy? I noe.. its between u and mi.. and its dearie's feelings for mi.. but dearie.. u were NOT WITH ME PHYSICALLY at that time... do u noe how worrying it can be? I have this fren.. who used to have a 2 and a half yrs rs with a great guy..
she was outgoing.. happening.. fun loving.. excitement and thrill sucker... went pubbing and clubbing one nite without her boy.. got drunk.. mistaken that guy who sent her back as her boyboy.. fucked.. and the rs goes down to drain.. it was when the guy had ORDed.. and they were probably ready to marry in few yrs time. the guy can't tolerate that that happened.. i dunno wat kinda guy is he.. but i'm sure he's forgiving for he saw AFEW guys playing and fooling ard with his ex at the beach and he's still FINE with it..
Does it sound like its almost applicable?
I am pretty sure if that ever happens to me.. I'd not onli break the bond no matter how strong it is.. I'll break the guy's dick too. I MEAN IT.
For every rs I got into.. I give my all.. esp. this.. for we seem so MFEO in every case.
try putting urself into my shoes if that ever happen.. maybe u'll kill the girl who did it with mi.
dearie..
do you understand?
can u keep these in ur mind and in ur heart?
I need no promises..
for promises were once wat i got.. MILLIONS OF THEM. REASSURANCE INCLUDED.
but it was broken once li'l crack happens and no effort was seen from one party to seal it or even raise it.
I love you dearie..
tell me how you feel.. for I need to noe.
show me how you feel..
for I need to feel.
Love me..
for I need you....
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Ray.
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For she had learnt and none should be done to remind.
1:23 AM
About The
GQ's Profile:
ID:
GQ/QinG/KK/Rukawa
Day of Generation:
09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
Desire~List
- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
MSN/Friendster: rukawa_koh@hotmail.com
Email: rukawa_gq@yahoo.com / rukawa.gq@gmail.com
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
Sports, swimming esp!, life-saving, shopping, taking pictures
Wishlist:
i'm so happy with dear now that i cant wish for more!!=)
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