Happy Chinese New Year to ALL who are reading my bloggie~~~ =D
Went to Yi Po's hm to bai nian... then Kim Po's hm... standard la.. but then.. it was a li'l difft this time as Yi Po told me alot and then my curiousity that doesn't kill me(cos i'm not a cat.).. discovered that my mum's the onli daughter of my grandma. and that I don't have any Biao something at all! =D
I oso found out that my dad's got 1 elder sister and 1 elder brother.. he's third.. and he got total of 4 more brothers and 3 more sisters..
I got 3 jiejie one dead and 2 KHORS..
good god. hahah... he's POWER~ =D
haha..
guess wat.. I gotta announce some wierd stuff here..
My Dua Gu who's a PROFESSOR.. gives FOUR dollars Ang Bao.. and an auntie who sweeps at the coffeeshop my mum works at gives TEN FREAKING DOLLARS...
Professor = Stingy person? All professors in this world.. please.. blame that stingy li'l person. LOL..=p
Yeah... went to dearie's home to bai nian... thensaw ALOT of pple.. but i went at a very bad state.. I got diarhhea and that bloody stool problem. f. it came back.. and my head's hurting.. from the minute and worrying abt work. this is my first time learning to F care.. so give mi some time. well.. got a shock when I saw ALL of her neighbours at her home... and the Jimmy said Happy Chinese New Year to me.. and I just smiled back cos I was so tired I don't noe wat to say! it applied to everyone that I met that nite.. freak! God Darn. looking at Jimmy and the bunch of homo-homosepians.. makes me feel like I should belong to that group... LOL... all so boyish look with some muscles here and there. Now I know why so many gays approached me.
Went to ADam's place.. and dearie dint even bother to intro mi to adam's family.. then I took her ang bao.. it was REALLY embarassing... not courteous at all... but no matter how i insist.. dearie won't do it. dint wan the situation to turn bad.. thus just let it go.
then saw Victoria... something she said kinda hurts.. but its silly to even think abt it.. she says she wants edmund.
AM I THAT BAD? well.. I know its a No for sure.. but why?
oh well.. its juz a kid's comment.. even tho a kid's comment is usually the most purely true ones.
wadeva.. the one i love is samsam.. not vic...
on the other hand.. Trinity's cute.. more than cute! heh. At least she don't dislike me.. haha... but seriously.. I just wasn't in the right state to talk or entertain or even do anything... usually I can play ard with kids quite well.. but I dunno how tonite..
Went to Jimmy's place later... the house was just too cozy to be true.. even tho I'd prefer a more spacious place.. but I like the bedroom in particular. Kinda kinky and exotic.. no.. i'm not tinking with my perverted mind.. but romance is wat's inside when I saw the room.
Spent some time at his home as dearie played cards.. she said watch her play awhile.. and her a li'l while turns out to be an hour plus...
It was fine at the beginning.. but then slowly I found out I really hve this hatred towards gambling. I noe.. its for entertaining purpose.. I noe.. its cos its new yr.. and I noe.. its her close neighbours.. and thus it'll be bad to leave in a true li'l while's time.. I have ALL THAT in mind... but when I think abt it again.. dearie got tipsy in front of them the nite before.. and dearie gambles. Isn't it a li'l overboard? I don't noe man... suddenly my protective nature overwhelmed me.. I noe dear's outgoing and loves fun.. that became more of a threat or danger sign to me when I thought of that..
I don't mind dearie' being outgoing and fun loving.. but WHAT IF all those(getting tipsy and gambling) happens outside?
Yes.. I noe dearie's a sensible gal.. I noe dearie can take care of herself..
but let me tell any and every reader one thing.
IF there is NO such thing as ACCIDENTS or POSSIBILITY... and dearie's shu bu qi de nature..
perhaps I won't even get worried at all.. Who noes wat will happen in the world outside? dearie
herself noe her si yao mian zi de ego oso. I shan't continue here.
I noe dearie dun like to be "guaned" but if I onli want you for physical pleasure or toy for some aspect.. and I don't treat you as my love at all.. I WOULDN'T tell you abt it at all.. or even get worked up! I'd be hoping you get tipsy one day outside and so I can dump you when I get bored of you.
I know its onli one month +.. but this kinda thing if I don't put it into words.. It may lead to more sad things next time.. more over.. I believe its nothing bad to learn from.
and please note. I noe clearly that dearie's onli entertaining.. and its onli for a special occasion.. and its onli a once a year thing (perhaps) onli. but can u count for mi how many SPECIAL OCCASIONS can there be?
My ultimate point is that I hope dearie will bear wat I said in mind.. getting tipsy at home is fine.. but please.. self control is more than anything else.. ESPECIALLY YOUR EGO and MIAN ZI.. when you're outside and I'm not with you. Gambling is fine.. (I won't touch it.. I hope you really understand it fully in terms of why and I don't wish anyone else to noe...).. as long as you noe when to stop. for you have live examples in front of u beside your dearest to see how badly it can damage one's personality. You ahve your freedom to exercise anything you want.. and I have mine.. but please.. bear this in mind.
Anything done by our ownself.. we HAVE to bear the consequences. and we SHOULD NOT put hopes on asking the other party to compromise or forgive. for its onli fair and RIGHT for the other party to do so willingly without being asked. this is basic courtesy and way of living. I dunno if dearie understand.
I meant to sound serious and not harsh in this entry.. for I'M DEAD SERIOUS abt this.
Just like that time when I told you that if dear can't chi ku with me.. then don't bother to even put hopes on me.. for I'm prepared for the future.. I need onli someone who can be as prepared as I do. I may get rich as hell or I may be as poor as the beggar.. but no matter wat I will live strong for I've been there and done that.. Nothing's not possible. I've lived on porridge and soy sauce for three meals aday.. two pieces of bread a meal makes no difference.
I already promised you I will work hard.. but still if fate and destiny book writes so that I will turn poor no matter how hard I work.. then I will still face hardship..
it's onli good to be prepared no matter wat.
Dearie told mi that you understand fully.. and you really noe that I meant good for you..
I put my trust in you.. please don't.. play with it.. okay?
for I gave my all previously.. and my trust was taken for granted.. I still am giving my all in all for you.. in fact.. more than I can handle.. I onli hope it is good enuff for you already.
well.. dearie.. I really love you... and it can't be described with words.. I don't noe how to write that down...
but I hope thru my actions and words you can see.. that all of the above ain't from the controlling and power-sucker me... its purely base on love.. concern and cares that arises worries from the wild thoughts of you getting tipsy and how gambling can destroy someone with great characteristics like my.. nvmz..
rmbr u msg mi wat when u were tipsy? I noe.. its between u and mi.. and its dearie's feelings for mi.. but dearie.. u were NOT WITH ME PHYSICALLY at that time... do u noe how worrying it can be? I have this fren.. who used to have a 2 and a half yrs rs with a great guy..
she was outgoing.. happening.. fun loving.. excitement and thrill sucker... went pubbing and clubbing one nite without her boy.. got drunk.. mistaken that guy who sent her back as her boyboy.. fucked.. and the rs goes down to drain.. it was when the guy had ORDed.. and they were probably ready to marry in few yrs time. the guy can't tolerate that that happened.. i dunno wat kinda guy is he.. but i'm sure he's forgiving for he saw AFEW guys playing and fooling ard with his ex at the beach and he's still FINE with it..
Does it sound like its almost applicable?
I am pretty sure if that ever happens to me.. I'd not onli break the bond no matter how strong it is.. I'll break the guy's dick too. I MEAN IT.
For every rs I got into.. I give my all.. esp. this.. for we seem so MFEO in every case.
try putting urself into my shoes if that ever happen.. maybe u'll kill the girl who did it with mi.
dearie..
do you understand?
can u keep these in ur mind and in ur heart?
I need no promises..
for promises were once wat i got.. MILLIONS OF THEM. REASSURANCE INCLUDED.
but it was broken once li'l crack happens and no effort was seen from one party to seal it or even raise it.
I love you dearie..
tell me how you feel.. for I need to noe.
show me how you feel..
for I need to feel.
Love me..
for I need you....
Checkout~
Ray.
Those
For she had learnt and none should be done to remind.
1:23 AM
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09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
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- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
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