Sick.. yet again.. think this half a yr has been really a sickening year for mi... No idea why.. but nah.. thats not the main point of this entry. Couldn't slp.. thus I'm here..
I thought of giving up bball again.. because I won't have time for it.. but then.. going back to the court.. hearing the sound of the ball bouncing as pple dribble again.. hearing pple cheering for me again.. hearing the sound of the pple shouting "YES!" before my shot even reaches the basket.. It all pulls me back and made me think not twice.. not thrice.. but quadraple times of giving up this beloved passion of mine. Seriously.. this is the most long lasting relationship I've ever went thru besides all the so called love of mine that I've known previously and ended with some sad sad way. Seriously.. I hope it still goes strong.. I still wanna ball.. thats a fact I can't escape.
Well.. despite being sick.. I have no where to turn to.. and staying at home is just too boring.. thus I went to the bball court without any hesitation.. I told myself whilst making the decision to just go there and sit down.. but before I know anything.. I was dribbling that little long lasting passion of mine over to the court with my sneakers and gears on. When I reach the court.. as usual.. I get a warm welcome from the pple there... its always.. yeah.. ALWAYS a good feeling to have a place where you "belong to"...
Played three games with Zhiming and Jeremy.. once my junior.. now..he's so much faster and better than me.. but as the sore loser I was and still am.. I ain't gonna give up. Anyway.. it was rather pressurizing.. and I really did only wanted to go there and rest and enjoy.. perhaps dribble some ball to get some ball sense.. but as per normal.. i was invited to the irresistible games.. Lost two games and won one.. but thats because zhiming was wearing shirt and long pants la.. himself is more than enuff to qie those three we were up against..
Yeah.. I was pretty lousy.. in fact.. I SUCKED. because I don't have the confidence like I used to.. my skills still exist.. but the fear of getting blocked and rejected and making mistakes seems to overwhelm me and cause my skills to be all hidden behind some wall. It was still pretty enjoyable.. I have no idea why.. but I just love the feeling of playing it. Its almost better than sex. somehow. heh.
Anyway.. engine started after the three games... focused pretty well and started scoring.. doing better D than previous games.. fourth and fifth game was where I really got the addiction feeling once again. I love the feeling of doing everything I want on the court.. somehow.. focusing had got my confidence back a little.. and I was able to perform again. Got rejected by that center for a couple of times.. but nvtheless I always stand up and tell my team to go again. Apparently.. my opponent guarding me was rather sian diao cos i just kept running.. or rather.. jogging non stop.. my stamina's there.. just that my foot work really kinda sucks. He told me "Why you keep saying "again".. dun again already la.. chase u damn tiring leh.".. I was tinking "heh.. I wasn't even running..".. yah... that was cool. quite an ego boost. enjoyed it but kept it to myself.
Was thoroughly enjoying myself.. I have no idea why.. but perhaps playing with zm seems to put a little more pressure on myself.. because we're playing the same position.. and I don't really noe how to play with him yet.. Gotta play more.. and get my feelings back once again. also.. noted tat Playing without him in the fourth and fifth game was much better for my side.. anyway.. perhaps my engine starts late cos i'm sick ba.
Did some AND1 tricks.. spin moves.. alleys... passes.. yeah.. passes was the best.. but what stoned me was when I got a three point in.. the net went "SWISH!!!"... the whole net overturned and spinned up.. God.. I miss those days.. where I was doing it like I was eating meals.
And that was it.. I am gonna pick it up again.. I'm sorry I tot of leaving.. but It ain't gonna happen! I promise! No matter how tough things get..I'll make time for it. Cos it was My Life.. and I am sure.. it STILL IS.
I Love This Game.
Checkout~
Qing. - True self.
1:04 AM
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09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
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- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
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- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
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- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
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- Backstabbers
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- Pple who breaks promises
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*Mei*~~Rong~~
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Yu
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Mike
Lester
Kenny
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- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
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Singapore Poly
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