Sigh.. so much for trying to figure out a Date function.. damn it.. I really hate IT.. it just get slips out of mind sooo easily esp. when you stop practicing for a while..
took like... 1hr? to figure out how the date function can actually works.
Hate to waste time like this.. but I just ain't some lucky guys with photographic memories.. Just wondering.. they have photographic memory but do they have virtually unlimited disk space? or do they die off just like harddisk? lol.. lame. maybe not. maybe some pointers to ponder at 1.33am right now. oh. wat a special time for me and her. =)
Anyway... Dearie has been really sweet.. she comes to my home at 10.. which means she left home at 8.30 or 9. Which means she wakes up at 7.30 or earlier.. just to come my home early and see me. cook for me.. so that the day start out in stylish greatness which i can delight in. Love the breakfast she makes.. even tho she says the ham and egg and cheese crepe is a success and looks like one.. i seriously love them. After breakfast was served.. the DeSsertS were even better.. grin.. shall leave that to your own imagination.
anyway.. wats more? she cooked lunch for me too.. i was supposed to cook but i went to shit. damn my bowel. Sometimes I feel that its almost impossible for me to meet someone like her.. I've typed this before previously in my previous rs.. but seriously.. i've nv been loved THIS WAY before? This is the very first time I feel unconditional love thats OOZING and Overwhelming. Yes, I'm a christian.. but screw me if you disagree and I won't even bother to look at your face when you speak. She's my top priority in life now. Without her.. where will I be? I thank god for blessing me with her.. but seriously. I live a reality life. Not in the realm of God. Understand what I say or forget them.
Yah.. and bad news. my dad's cancer is in the third stage..
Good news.
Third Stage = cancer cells spreaded to other organs or parts already. So since throat cancer affects vocal cord and vocal cord is like less than 5cm from larynx.. its much easier for throat cancer to spread there. so the equation goes Spreaded/Grow bigger til it overlaps another part = Third Stage. Which means it may not be as bad as other cancer's third stage.
I sound like I'm consoling myself but I'm gonna get it checked out tomorrow afternoon. I hope I can get the information that I need. At least find out from a doc what he can eat and what he can't. what I should do to help and what I can help.
He's my dad. the one I'm thankful for dragging his tired body to work every day and nite just so i can have rice and even bread to eat. Without him, I won't even be here typing with singlish. Forget abt chinese.. forget even abt any literacy. I mean Any.
Mum's stubborn.. Mum loves Dad.. I can Look Listen Feel that. so does dad and everyone else on the table.. but she's just a simple minded lady/girl/woman. Dad just impress me so much whenever he can understand things at the level which awes me like I've nv thought he's such a great understanding and impressive person. I guess he's mind is as charming as his look.. now.. more.
I seriously pray that He'll bless my earthly dad and let what the he says the doc says(he can live another 20 yrs if he get it treated.) become real. Because I would really love to repay him with his love for me x 10 if possible. x 9 for my mum. Unless she gets enlightened one day.
Amen x 100.
God bless me and dearie samsam and our rs too.. I really don't know what else to put into words except being thankful.. worried.. loved.. happy.. tired.. conscious.. stone and probably sad in some way.
ORD is coming soon. =)
Hope BM comes as soon too. hee..
LG. Life Guard.
Qing.
1:36 AM
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GQ/QinG/KK/Rukawa
Day of Generation:
09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
Desire~List
- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
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Email: rukawa_gq@yahoo.com / rukawa.gq@gmail.com
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
Sports, swimming esp!, life-saving, shopping, taking pictures
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i'm so happy with dear now that i cant wish for more!!=)
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