I miss my dad..
Yea.. Its not easy for him.. I know its damn damn damn suffering for him.. He miss us all.. comes home just to check if there's RICE in the bucket and if everthing's alrite.. Even though he's SO ill.. and he looks so.. pale.. I seriously pray hard that he will be healed by you.. amen.. anyway..every meal I eat.. or rather.. every single mouth of solid food I take in nowadays.. I will think of how difficult it is for him.. my earthly dad.. he can't swallow because it hurts SO much.. and fuck.. did it hurt my heart too.
I really wished I was better to him.. I knew my attitude changed as I matured quite a little.. but I still kinda hate myself for shouting at him and getting frustrated at him out of nothing or something he did for my own good but I was simply too DUMB to realise it was something he did for my own good!. Screw myself for that.
Mum's really very money minded.. and I can't blame her because the family's financial thingy is in her hands right now.. I really hope she spends Wisely.. I know she can't.. but I pray that she will. amen to that again.
Ns is going to be over.. from a non-swimmer to a lifeguard to be.. it was pretty amazing how things had turned over the short period of two years I served for the nation. I was lucky enuff to meet my special somebody who turned me from a runner to a swimmer.. she saved my knees.. and a bad tempered guy/ego freak/pride freak to a more understandin person and sensitive person.. cos she's more bad tempered than me.. unlike that previous somebody. hahaa.. challenges always make things better.. oh yeha.. she turned me into an indian like being too. I'm so dark now. haha.. Ms Jacqueline called me Chinaman.. but I doubt she still could if she sees me again now. =)
I'm Oh-So-Thankful to samantha for all that.
This is my last day in the office.. and I'm doing a DO duty.. and I am here writing a blog because sam requested me to do so? ahaa..ok la.. also because I completed my work liao so abit free for now lor..
Today's weihao's bday! and I just wished him happy bday..
Seriously.. I'm so glad I have my own bunch of die hard brothers for life!
They're as follow:
- Jingfu!
- Yikang!
- Banyang!
- Weihao!
- Lester!
- Michael!
- Melvin!
- Kai Zhong!
We've been together for a period of 9 to 10 years! haha.. goodness.. thanks to basketball who brought us together more or less! They're serious bunch of wonderful friends who nv fail to be there once called upon.. and rest assured I'll be there for you guys whenever need be!
Ha.. and suddenly, I miss those days in sec sch when I was still a fat boy who LOVES basketball to the core.. and we just play ball in the lunchtime.. recess time.. whenever there's a ball and whenever there's a court! haa.. It was so carefree because there's nothing to worry abt..
but then again.. the shittie thing is.. Time flies and now.. I'm here shouldering LOTSA stuffs.. nvm.. I shan't fall.. and I shall fight and perservere on. Thanks to dearie who pulls me up once in a while when I fall badly. I'm still learning.. but I will be strong de! Dearie oso.. if you need me.. pls.. I hope I can be the one you cry to too.. I will always lend u my personal listening ears and shoulder and every single part you need!.. always.. and sincerely too. =)
Ok.. before I end this entry..
Let me announce something.. I am LESS THAN 20 HRS TO CLEARING LEAVE!!!!!! haa...
ORD OH! =X
dearie.. is that light hearted enuff? haa.. hope this cheers u up a little by bringing some happy memories of you and your sec sch frens too! =) Pl take care of yourself.. and Yah.. i got eat medicine and lunch and drink LOTS of water! so no worries oki? I am resting during lunch time which is AMAZING cos I tot of swimming.. but nah.. I shall rest til tonite! hee.. Pray that I'll have a safe nite and nothing will happen for DO duties to be carried out yeah? AMEN! haa..
I love you darling..
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Qing.
1:29 PM
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ID:
GQ/QinG/KK/Rukawa
Day of Generation:
09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
Desire~List
- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
MSN/Friendster: rukawa_koh@hotmail.com
Email: rukawa_gq@yahoo.com / rukawa.gq@gmail.com
"In~LoVeS'~"
SY's Profile:
Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
Sports, swimming esp!, life-saving, shopping, taking pictures
Wishlist:
i'm so happy with dear now that i cant wish for more!!=)
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