Lots of my life has change.. since I entered Army.. til I went over to police.. thru the training.. til I broke with shir.. til now.. When i'm blessed with such overwhelming love I could nv even dream of.
Rmbr that day when I enlist at Tekong.. Mum cried.. I finally expressed my thoughts to her thru shir that time.. my appreciation for her and daddy's love.. It was almost like I was parting forever.. It was sad.. but I'm glad I went thru it.. for I've seen thru alot and I've learnt alot.. really.
Thank God for that.
Well.. Its July already man.. and its only like 10 days more of work minus my leave.. I'm seriously more than glad whenever I thought of it.. for I can finally get out of the 900 dollars salary limit! Its soooo restricting.. and I really need more for my family and my gal and myself...
To add on to the motivation for getting out of the force fast.. The boss's quite a fucker except he did me a favour for not charging me because I pleaded like mad to him. Damn it.. a mistake made once.. I'll nv repeat it again. Lesson learnt anyway.. ALWAYS cover your ass and NEVER overtrust anybody.
Thru the much trainings.. I've attained fitness I'd nv thought I could. I've pushed my limits once and many a times over what I had believed I can and Restricted myself to. 7mins 2.4..40 seconds laps of Free Style in 3 months when I couldn't even really swim previously. 5X500(<1min each) Intervals.. 6 to 19 chinups in 4 months. Memorising 500+++ lines of CRIMINAL LAW. Not Codings. Etc. etc.. so many of them.. It was amazing what a human can do when he Believe and Focus and really Do it with his heart. I've been thru that and I'm gonna keep that with me all of my life in EVERY thing I do. This is one invaluable gift I had gained in my NS life.
OH YES.. another small thing to note. I've learnt to curb my ego and anger and inprove my patience and my ability to think vastly too. =)
Last but not least.. I've seen thru many pple.. and worked with various kinda pple.. seen how bad pple can be.. and how unreasonable and slacking anyone Can be. How important it is to learn to slack at the correct times... Dun be over garang and say u noe this and that when u've been paid what u are NOT worth. Just do your best in what's given to you and above average initiative in small but significant stuffs. Perfect formula.
Oh yes.. how can I forget..
The happiest thing that happened beside learning how to swim and becoming a water baby is probably the reason for that to happen. Yups, it was my interest too.. but the main motivation factor.. My Dearie.. Samsam =)
When we first met at Fish and Co.. I was like White Chocolate.. Land Creature. Quite flat chested. haha.. It didn't seem like we're gonna be together at all. Really NOT AT ALL. lol.. it wasn't love at first sight.. it wasn't a physical attraction thingy.. cos we aren't good looking to each other. We know. hehee.. But I'm thankful Love works with wonderful ways and in the most unexpected manner! Somehow.. Mr Cupid find his way thru the many memories of the unpleasant pasts of ours and shot it right through Our Hearts in one line.. From then on.. til now.. we're still linked together.. only getting stronger. Thank God for that again. =)
Sam's a little temperamental.. moodswinger.. noisy at times.. crybaby.. grumpy girl.. she bitch.. she criticize alot.. she's got superb ego and pride problem.. she's got difficulty handling her anger.. she's down under notti. and she's always saying she's fat.. contradiction factors of low self esteem with looks but pride brings her to always walk head-chest-up and ever so proudly of herself most of the times..
I can name all the bad things of her.. because I accept her as who she is, its not because I wanna lodge a complain. I don't wanna keep saying my gf's perfect companion and the whole blog just blabbers abt how great she is.. I like reality even tho its painful and often cruel. Being in reality is great because it brings your feet to earth and you'll work your ass off in every aspect just so tat you can get what you want. That includes knowing her weakness and mine and then we'll work things out together. Nothing's gonna work out if we just see the beauty in each other and someday somehow a little thing breaks out of no where and the crack will probably last forever. I hope she sees the bad things in me too.. and shares it with me.. I promise I will either change.. or compromise.. or best of all.. make things work out for the both of us in a winwin situation.. work with me. Alrite? =)
She still buy food for me and ask me to sit down no matter where we go eat. I'm taking over.. but a li'l by li'l bit.. =) She's letting me love her more already. which is good. =) She still wakes up super early and come to my house to cook me something to eat and surprise me with the.. uh hemm... nvm..
Hee.. its still sweet and great. I pray that God will continue to bless us and our rs.. and also.. bless my dad and heal him completely thru the radio and chemo therapy.. I know through your might.. anything is possible.. Amen!
Alrite.. time to slp....
zzz..
Nites all..
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Qing.
11:34 PM
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GQ/QinG/KK/Rukawa
Day of Generation:
09 AugusT 1984
ZodIaRk ~ LeO
Inner BeasT ~ Mice
Loves:
- Samsam/Samantha
- Basketball *Passion*
- Swimming
- Running
- BlooD *Craving*
- Sensual Pain~
- Kitties and Puppies *Cuddle*
- My brothers and sisters
- My Real family and my brother
- StrawBerriEs
- Hugx and Caresses
- Nibbles and Kisses
- Orgasms
- Well defined Muscles
- Flat Abs
- 34D =)
- Programming (Not a Geek either)
- Beach
- Getting Sun-Kissed
- Pple who dares to be themselves and not hide
- bitches sometimes :)
- Loves and Romance..
- To lend a helping hand/listenin ear at ALL times =)
- Betrayers
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- HypocRytes
- Pple who breaks promises
- Arrogant pple
- Pple who act holy
- Bastards
- Bittergourd
- NS
- Lazy pple/Pple w No Urgency
*Mei*~~Rong~~
GwenGwen
JiaYuan
*Mei*~~Rachel~~
Yu
Dael
Mike
Lester
Kenny
Desire~List
- DEARIE'S HUGX AND KISSES
- New Phone.. 6230I
- Nike Bag.. 82.95
- Abs.
- Bigger Biceps and Triceps.
- Better Complexion
- Better Health...
- Black Jeans
- Orange Shirt
- Grey Pants
- Black Leather Belt
MSN/Friendster: rukawa_koh@hotmail.com
Email: rukawa_gq@yahoo.com / rukawa.gq@gmail.com
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Samantha Yeo Su Yun
18 years old
Singapore Poly
Lifeguard, Financial Trade
Sports, swimming esp!, life-saving, shopping, taking pictures
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i'm so happy with dear now that i cant wish for more!!=)
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